Remember

I meant every word I whispered or yelled into your ears last night Nikita. When we were sitting there under the stars with your legs wrapped around me , undulating like chanting monks, I felt so open and close and safe. And in the next moment, I felt as if I could devour you in a frenzy of lust and sexual pyrotechnics. And so I did. At times I wasn't sure where I ended and you began - it seemed as if our souls were freely moving between our bodies. I feel alive in every fiber of my being today - the city is more beautiful, the colors more vibrant... I am smiling... I haven't allowed myself the luxury of loving a person in a long time Nikita - In our line of work, it's always best to remain unattached, detached, distant...Sex has always meant an exchange, a contact, a way to get something from somebody else - a taking of something that is to be used for another purpose - I had forgotten just how beautiful (practically spiritual) it is to connect with another person so deeply. Remember me as I was last night Nikita. It's the closest thing to my true being you may ever see. 

I've been in Minsk for less than a month and we have already created several messes that need attention. As much as I wish you had deveined Konrad, he is for now, integral to my work here - You know how well I am able to serve up a very cold revenge. I don't forget transgressions easily, especially when they involve you. Your continued employment at the brothel is not going to work, professionally or personally.  Grigori will reassign you under a different cover. There is another lab we need to infiltrate, so arrangements are being made. 

You mentioned Drobwa Avenue a few weeks ago - I can't remember in what context, but the name sounded familiar - I received a plain package from an address on that street today. Inside were several pages of complex chemical formulations. It's necessary for me to get to the bottom of this new development quickly, so I may be off the grid for a few days. 

Or not. If I can't see you, I'm compelled to stay as close to you as I can with words.

S