Hidden Truths

Sergio,
It is just like you... to be able to be in the middle of our most dangerous and delicate mission, and still you can focus on the mingling of our energies instead of the webs of our deceptions.

I suppose you are right, perhaps I do have more to share with you that is unspoken, but years of practice in hiding the truth has made it inaccessible, even to me. Perhaps that is why i have always craved the covers where I must disguise myself so extremely... it helps me feel sure of, at least, who I am not. I am not the woman in the fat suit, and you are right again... I am sure I never will be. It is when the suit is off that I am not so confident. Perhaps the secrets you are sensing are the secrets I am keeping from myself. Those conflicts within create a dissonance in me that a man like you (so expert in reading the nuances of truth and lies) can certainly feel.

When I am with you I feel that dissonance smooth out, like saxophone players tuning to the same note.... It feels good and that is why I find myself taking risks... those 'non-regulation moves' as you describe them... in order to be near you. I dream that in the quiet of this peace I will hear the secrets my heart wants to tell us.

On another note, I believe things are going well with Ozerov. I do my best to not be totally alone with him just yet, in case he tries to speak to me as Genovese. As Ingrid I can afford to make small errors and it makes sense... new girl in the office... and over time I will know everything anyway. Konrad has been to his office and seems to enjoy Ozerov, he jokes with him and slaps him on the back and gives him strange, knowing looks. It seems the idea that Ozerov could have killed his personal assistant is something that bonds them. If this really was Ozerov's plan, it proves that he does indeed know Konrad very well, and that he is perceptive to people. Just a warning to be careful. Ozerov may be willing to help bring Konrad down, but I don't think that means he is unwilling to bring anyone down.

You mentioned you have an appointment to see him this week, but he has not told me about it, so i am not fully in his confidence yet.

Be careful my sweet,
Nikita