Sergio,
Thank you for reminding me of our little 'technique'. Who knew something so depraved, so kinky could very well end up saving the world. And what a world it is, when pain is the only thing sobering enough to keep me from wanting to inflict pain on everyone I look at. If my state, induced by the AntiSanctity is anything close to Konrad's natural state we are all in terrible danger.
In my moments without the clothespins I feel myself being swept into this strange world where other people's suffering makes me strong...it is like I can feel their power leave them and enter me. In this state, Konrad is the only other person who I can connect with. It is like everyone else is just ghosts of... not even people... just these annoying cobwebs that prevent me from going where I want to go, that slow me down... and then there is Konrad. I see him clearing away the same cobwebs and it is like we both know we are helping each other, it is like we are soulmates... I need him to complete me, without him I feel lost and I must help Konrad with OOOOWWWWWWWWWWWWWW OOOOOOOWWWWWW FUCK AAAGGGGHHHHH OOOWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!
Luckily I took your advice and have attached a few clothespins to my body under my fat suit. In certain, unpredictable, moments the suit causes them to shift and allow a new sting to my otherwise numbed and damaged flesh. As I was saying before, inflicting pain upon myself seems to be the only way to keep my mind clear.
My transmitter is fixed and ready. Of course to provide the most security, the least chance of detection, we will not be able to actually converse. The transmitter will automatically send you what I have recorded at regular intervals, and I can also hit send when I like. But I will only receive your messages when I am in a moment where it is safe enough to do so. We can't risk anyone overhearing you or hacking in. Sergio, I feel strong knowing you are here, but I cannot say I have confidence in this mission tonight. I think that.... Wait, I see Ozerov coming up the driveway to pick me up. Our next contact will be through the transmitter.
Good night my love. I am afraid of the circumstances under which I will see you next. You have been so unreliable lately and I am not sure of your usefulness to me or anyone for that matter. Your idiotic macho bullshit has no one fooled and your so called 'intelligence' is questionable. When I think of what a waste of human flesh you are, weak, and so selective about who you kill, as if anyone is worthy of life in this fucking sludge factory we call OOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWW FUCK OOOWWWWWWWWWWWWWW BASTARD SHIT AAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGG AAAGGGHHOOOOWWWWWWWWWWWWW
Sergio, I love you. God help me.
Nikita